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Repent ye! Repent ye!

9 Aug

I’ve learned an incredible lesson the last couple of weeks.

Being a missionary is a big responsibility. We are called by the Lord to “stand in his place … to say and do what he himself would say and do if he personally were ministering to the people to whom he has sent [us]” (Elder Bruce R. McConkie). I can tell you quite honestly that I fall short of that every day. It can really start to weigh on you, all the times that you don’t quite do enough or don’t quite get it right. It’s hard to face the eternal consequences of the work of salvation. Even the little mistakes start to add up.

But this week I’ve been doing something different. Every night, as I pray before going to sleep, I spend some time thinking about those little things that I missed. I ask my Heavenly Father for forgiveness for specific things, not just the lump sum of falling short. Each and every little thing I can think of, I take the time to make right with the Lord.

I can’t say that I’m finding fewer little things, and I know I’m not finding all the little things. But I’m trying. And when I wake up in the morning I feel good. I feel clean. I feel more worthy to have the Holy Ghost as my companion.

I’ve learned these last couple of weeks that repentance is not just for big sins, it’s also for all the little things that we know we could have done better. And repentance isn’t painful or fearful, it’s the most peaceful, joyful thing we can do.

I know that Jesus Christ came into this world to suffer for our sins and to make it possible for us to be healed of spiritual pain. I know that He loves us. I know that He will lead me back to my Heavenly Father. And I know that all of this depends on my willingness to act and to apply the atonement to my life. I’ve been working harder on that, and I want to recommend it to all of you. Repent! Not because you’re afraid of the consequences of big sin, but because it will take away the burden of little stones that has built upon your back.


Missionaries are weird.

18 Nov

It’s Thursday night. I know what that means. Tonight is the NBC comedy line-up: The Office, Community, 30 Rock. Those were my faves. Will I be watching them tonight? Of course not.

I was trying to explain to someone last night that missionaries are kind of weird. Sometimes I worry that we’re the first face of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints that many people see. We follow so many rules that most members aren’t required to follow and we have our own strange little culture where we make watchbands out of neckties (I can’t even explain that one). One rule we follow that a lot of people are surprised by is that we don’t watch T.V.

It’s weird. Before coming out here I was a total T.V. junkie. But the girl to whom I was explaining all this to last night commented that she thought it was wonderful, that we get to focus so much on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. And, of course, she’s right. Not watching television isn’t the trial I thought it would be. And I have been abundantly blessed for making this small sacrifice.

Because we don’t watch television, we get to enjoy silence. This world is so full of noise! In 1 Kings, Elijah the prophet discovered that the voice of the Lord was not the wind or the earthquake, but a still small voice (1 Kings 19: 11-12). Because we are here to make our own choices, the Lord doesn’t shout at us, He waits for us to listen. How can we listen when we are surrounded by so much noise? Taking a few moments and listening–removing myself from worldly distractions for a while–is the best thing I’ve ever done. Even if I do miss my shows.

That’s not to say I’ll never go back. You’d better believe I’ll be catching up on some shows when I finish my mission. But I plan to be much more selective about the entertainment I choose. I know so much better now how important it is to make sure that the show I’m watching doesn’t offend the Spirit of God. I know that I need to make my home a place of uplifting media, where I can still hear the voice of the Lord, and follow its guidance.

Television is great, nobody knows that better than me. But I’m telling you all, it’s not everything. Not even close.

Who am I?

18 Aug

I used to be Melanie Meaders. I used to be unsure of what I wanted to do with my life. I used to love being lazy. I used to love playing tennis, going to movies, and hanging out with my friends.

Now I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I am called of Him to declare His gospel and I give myself full-time to that calling. I love to be obedient. I love to be productive. I love to tell my friends that I will see them in a little over a year. I have an important work to do.

“My Calling”

–Elder Bruce R. McConkie

I am called of God. My authority is above that of the kings of the earth. By revelation I have been selected as a personal representative of the Lord, Jesus Christ. He is my master and He has chosen me to represent Him.

To stand in his place… to say and do what He Himself would say and do if He personally were ministering to the people to whom He has sent me. My voice is His voice, and my acts are His acts. My words are His words and my doctrine is His doctrine.

My commission is to do what He wants done. To say what He wants said. To be a living, modern witness, in word and deed, of the divinity of His great and marvelous latter-day work.

How great is my calling.

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